Two weeks ago, I was an emotional wreck, a human sprinkler. I cried in front of people...A LOT. I thought I mght be pregnant for a short while. Then, when I realized I wasn't, I thought I was losing my mind.
One week ago, I felt a little better. I also started working out. TurboFire baby! In-home workout videos. During my looney-tune week, I met Chalene Johnson, creator of TurboFire. Not in person. On TV. She was crazy like me. So, I decided she should visit my house. She IS crazy like me. And she makes me sweat. In fact, she makes me jump around like a monkey. In one week, I've already lost 7 lbs. No joke. Thanks Chalene.
Five days ago, I went out on a limb and shared a song I'd written last summer. Before I say more, I'll share my all-time favorite song lyrics from Anna Nalick's "Breathe (2AM);" they perfectly sum up how I feel about songwriting:
2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
'Cause these words are my diary screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to
The song I shared last week I wrote almost one year go. Nalick's lyrics above explain why. I'm not good at simply speaking my heart. So, sharing it via a song is an entirely different animal. Literally like a journal entry, I've held that song close.
In the course of the last five days, my creation became a real, living breathing song. We used it at PCC yesterday. It was well-received, it moved people, it was...GOOD. My friend, mentor, and leader, Beth Stoddard, arranged it and sang it. That not only makes my heart swell...it takes my breath away. That's how God speaks sometimes.
You see, we've come full circle. It was in Beth's living room that my journey started almost exactly two years ago. I was an emotional wreck then. God used her to change and shape me. One year ago, I wrote a song about it. Yesterday, Beth sang it.
And so TODAY, I stand amazed amidst a two-year full circle and a two-week mini-reminder that GOD picks up the pieces, no matter where we stand, how broken or alone we feel, and no matter how scared we are to share. Still unsure about HIM? It's ok. I've been there. However, I urge you to give Him a chance. He just might amaze YOU.
Click below to check out yesterday's service and the song, The Choice.
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